But as a man living up to his life's prime, I've had my fair share of happiness. I am now at my early twenties, and still loveless. Tanong nga ng iba, "do you like someone?" Hahaha! Of course naman! I have this person I associate with the lines, "Something's telling me, it might be you."

But why stay single?

There are too many dramas na pwede gawing reasons on why remain single after twenty years. Akala ng iba, ang pagiging student leader ay katumbas na ng isang love guru: sumbungan at tagabigay ng advice. Nakakadeliver din naman ng mga magandang payo. But the pain they share, becomes a part of my own. You feel them, and you cry with them.

Putchang pag-ibig naman kasi. No certainty with it. Honestly, I am scared. Takot na takot. Tingin ko sa pag-ibig, may dalang sakit. Nakakahawa, yes. See the people around, with all the partners they flaunt to everyone? It only shows how they enjoy love. But the downside of it, most of those I know experience sadness and even depression. Ansaket. Potek na love 'yan! Walang forever. 

When you love, you open yourself to a whole new world. It's a different setting and new challenges await. By loving back someone, you remove the shroud covering your identity. Bare. Naked. Vulnerable. No more mystery, only the choice of life being happy or full of misery. 

One word for myself: duwag. I concede. I don't want to take my chances. But one thing my friends need to help me figure it out is, until when? Will there be a sign? How will I know? I only frustrate myself. I don't want to play by fire and get burned, but later also thought of its warmth.

And here I am, waiting for my love to be chained with me for a lifetime. The one that George Duke sings, Born to Love You. Then maybe that time, I'll have it all and make it possible.

(laking pasalamat ko po sa Spotify na nagpa-alab sa aking natutulog na duwag na damdamin. nagyon, duwag pa rin at nag-aantay ng senyales)